Tina T Possible NDE

Experience Description

I had a dream where a doctor told me that I was pregnant, but would have a miscarriage due to chromosomal defects. Two days later, I had pregnancy symptoms and took a test. It told me that I was pregnant.

Weeks went by and then I had another dream. I was in the hospital bed and soaked in blood. A uterus was left on the hospital bed when I got up.

Two days later after that dream, I woke up drenched in blood. I did go to the hospital and was soaked in blood. I almost needed a hysterectomy. So both the pregnancy itself and the miscarriage were foretold in dreams 2 days before the events happened.

In the hospital and after significant blood loss, I lost my vision. I could only see pale blue and green spots. But, I could hear, feel, and talk softly. I couldn't move much because I had no energy. I previously had no pain, but once the blood loss progressed to the point right before I lost consciousness, I felt intense pain like every cell in my body was writhing in agony. I couldn't remain in my body because it was too painful. I sort of 'ejected' myself out of my body, as if by will.

Instantly, I was in a soul realm like a tunnel or stream. It was a dark green color, but I could feel I was headed to light. It was absolute bliss; all of the pain was gone and I was in this all-encompassing orgasmic state. I knew where I was going because I had been there before during a meditation experience a few years back. I could feel a gentle energy taking me upward to the afterlife. I was enjoying my journey there and excited to be going. I knew about my life and everything I was leaving, but it didn't seem important because I was ready for what was next.

But then I saw my living dog, named Goblin. She could only see her from her chest up to her head. She communicated telepathically to let me know that I had to come back to my life. I was shown images of all the dogs who needed my leadership and care, and how my work is not yet done. I own a dog daycare business and own a large pack of dogs myself. But the pull of the afterlife was too tempting, so I continued to let the afterlife 'stream' take me up.

Then my husband, who in the emergency room with me, appeared from the chest up to his head. He also communicated telepathically to let me know I had more to do. He told me he needs me, and lots of people and animals need me to return too. A lot of things are hinging on me being there. But again, I was not concerned about that and just wanted to continue on to the afterlife.

It was the spirit of this cosmetic surgery idea that appeared to me. A couple months before this experience, I stumbled upon videos about a body-contouring surgery, but I did not think I had the money or ability to take time off to do it. So, I did not take this idea seriously or set any goals to do it. I used to model in the past, but after 4 miscarriages, I would over eat from depression and became fat. This made me feel like my life and opportunities were ending. But this surgery gave me hope that I could get my life back on track, so I could fulfill my potential in modeling and music.

I had glimpses of how much Happiness I could have on earth in my body, love my body for once, and how having the surgery could unlock many opportunities for me to express my creativity with confidence in music and imagery. The future was shown to me like a montage. The spirit also insisted that I come back to fulfill my potential, as there was a lot creativity in me that I have barely scratched the surface of my potential.

I began to snap out of the seductive lure that the afterlife's pull had on me. I decided the visions were right and that I should return to my body. So I pushed my energy really hard to the left side, until I fell out of the tunnel of energy and was instantly back in my body.

I felt all of the pain from when I left my body, only it felt even worse. I had needles in both of my arms and I was still blind. I was sweating profusely, and the doctors had my hospital bed all the way down flat. I was hyperventilating and could hear nurses coaching me to slow down my breathing. They told me I needed surgery and they may need to do a hysterectomey if they couldn't stop the bleeding. Upon hearing the word hysterectomy, I decided I would commit suicide if that happened. They warned me they could not give me anesthesia for the surgery because I had eaten. But they said they would give me something to make me forget everything. They wheeled me to another room, where I think I got a blood transfusion but I couldn't see, so I'm not sure. My vision came back as they wheeled me to an operating room. They lifted me to the table and strapped down my limbs. A Male nurse was close to my face insisting he'd help me through it and comfort me. They began surgery and it was the most painful thing I've ever experienced. The Male nurse could not handle my agony and jumped across the room panicked. After surgery, they took me to a recovery room in the birthing ward. I received blood transfusions to drip throughout the night and morning. My husband said I looked like a corpse when they wheeled me out of the operating room. Once my hemoglobin was stable and I met their criteria, they released me from the hospital around noon the next day.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: April 19, 2018

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Childbirth Miscarriage, extreme blood loss. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

This miscarriage was my fifth miscarriage that I've had and the only one that became life threatening.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I was aware of the entirety of my life, knew what was happening and where I was headed. There was no mystery, anxiousness, or wonder; only sureness and confidence, like I was returning home.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? the entire time it was high level consciousness and alertness

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could feel and know what was 'behind' the vision or what it was made of. Instead of just seeing visuals, I understood the mechanics behind what I was seeing.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Sound was telepathic, it was like ideas being projected at me instead of noises/words being spoken to me.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was like an energy tunnel, the pull of the energy felt like a gentle stream that was lifting me upwards.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw my living pet dog Goblin. I have many dogs, but she has the closest relationship with me. I raised her from a small puppy. My living husband. Also the soul of an idea to have a surgery that would change my life interacted with me.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I didn't look directly at it, but I could see and feel light from above that was pulling me up.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm A tunnel-like realm that was dark green, but I could feel and detect light that was pulling me upward to it.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? bliss, orgasmic, homecoming, peace, obvious, natural, destiny, next-logical-step, then a sense of duty to return for the reasons described to me by the spirits.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I knew the function of all things, but I had previously had that information downloaded during an OBE I had while meditating. I knew what happened, where I was going, etc.. I knew why 'bad' and 'good' things happened, I understood what my soul was made of and what the purpose of all life is. How all things stem from the same energy, all is one.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events I knew the entirety of my life and I felt just fine leaving it behind and felt it was complete. I was happy with it. During a previous OBE during meditation, I had an actual past life review with visuals getting to relive each moment and see it from an outside perspective, and I got to see how my behavior influenced other people's feelings and life events. But I did not get a visual past life review during my NDE, I simply already knew it.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future My dog and husband showed me glimpses of the future and why I was crucial to those things happening. They involved my business and caring for many, many animals and being important in their lives to bring joy. The spirit of the BBL surgery showed me glimpses of my future that I could achieve once I felt comfortable with my body again. This involved modeling and my music career. (I had previously quit music after some bad experiences).but it showed me I'm not done yet, there's much more to unlock and being confident in my body was a huge part of it.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life I was happily floating on the stream of energy into the afterlife, but the apparition of my living dog, then my living husband, then the spirit of a goal I wanted to achieve but previously didn't think I could, came to convince me telepathically to return. I had more I had to experience. It took all 3 of those spirits to convince me to return.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other faiths- New age Former Christian (Lutheran), Spiritual but not religious.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Since I now know the power of ideas and how they have souls in and of themselves, I now do spell work, witchcraft etc. Prior I worked with Law of Attraction, but witchcraft adds another layer to that energy work. I know any idea I entertain is a real thing that I can draw power from. Yes

What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age Similar, with added witchcraft practices / energy work

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I knew all was one, I knew life was eternal, I knew joy/love/expansion was the purpose of life. I listened to lots of Abraham Hicks recordings, and their message matched what I experienced. But I did not know that ideas had souls that could interact and had interest in us. I had never heard of that concept. I heard the concept 'when you think a thought, the thought thinks' but it did not dawn on me that the idea was its own being.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes It went along with what I believed, but it added a new layer to things. Knowing ideas are beings themselves was new knowledge that adds another dimension to my understanding of our energy-based, vibration-based world.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I knew everything was made of God's energy. I could feel that. But the otherworldly being I saw was the spirit of the BBL surgery. Prior I did not know that ideas had souls that could interact and had free will.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I knew I was an eternal being, it was obvious to me

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes It was obvious to me; I had already had another journey where that was revealed to me and this felt like a continuation of what I already knew. I was extremely comfortable and this didn't at all seem like new information. It was just absolutely obvious that all was connected and everything was one. Everything is made of God energy.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes It was obvious; I was aware of it and it was everything.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I was shown why the surgery I had interest in was a crucial component of my future and unlocking my creative potential, and thus my potential to bring tremendous joy and interest to the world. Also, I was shown how important my compassion in working with animals was to the world at large.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes The purpose was joy and expansion, creation, taking things to new levels and exploring the awesomeness of being alive. The negative experiences create desires for new things, and feeling good aligns us to receive the good we've asked for. I felt like my life did that, so I didn't feel the need to return. But I was told by the 3 spirits that I wasn't even close to being done yet.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I knew there was, and that I was joyously on my way to it.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Souls are not just of people or animals, but ideas have souls and are 'alive' and able to interact as well.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes They're a necessary element that brings about new desires. Nothing new would exist without challenges. It allows for the biggest expansion possible.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes That it's the only thing that's real, it's what all things point to. Everything is for the purpose of more and expanded love.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life It profoundly solidified things I already knew, and reminded me I have some spiritual powers that I hadn't tapped into. It gave me confidence to pursue 'risky' things like cosmetic surgery because I knew it was a part of my destiny and a key in unlocking my creative powers.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It almost felt like I had a body but I knew I was energy outside of a body. Like an ethereal body. I knew the visuals were a translation of energy and it appeared that way because that was the format I was used to while alive so it was shown to me in a way that made sense from a visual context. The glimpses of the future I was given by the spirits was lived and felt by me as I saw them. A lot happened but it appeared in flashes of imagery.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. Normally for most of my life I have poor memory about things. I may not remember what I did yesterday, or last week. I forget lots of things, details are lost or entire memories are lost. But this experience was very vivid and stays in my memory.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I think I had it all along, obviously with the premonition dreams about the pregnancy and miscarriage. In the past I've heard a voice that predicted a death a few minutes before it happened. And I've had an OBE that showed me even deeper into the death realm that I saw during my NDE. But the experience reiterated all of that and made me drawn to energy work like witchcraft and shamanism.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The three spirits that convinced me to come back. I have 10 dogs, so that only my dog Goblin appeared was interesting. She is the most affectionate with me, and most connected to me. The surgery spirit appearing to me and convincing me to come back is profound because cosmetic surgery in life is often thought of as superficial and there's stigma around it. It is often not considered a 'spiritual' thing to do. However, it appearing and letting me know how important it was to my evolution was astounding. And the idea that an idea has a soul of its own that's capable of interacting with you was brand new information to me. That lets me know how profound everything in life really is.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it with my husband as soon as I got home from the hospital. He was amazed. I shared it on my facebook page, people found it interesting. I've shared it in facebook NDE groups, which people found interesting. I've shared it with a few close friends, and they were amazed.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes They've always been interesting to me. Usually they involve seeing dead relatives, a gate into heaven, meeting God, etc.. But I didn't experience those things in mine, though I may have if I continued deeper into that realm. Instead of dead relatives I saw a living pet, family member, and an idea come to life.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was a seamless experience. I was in my body, left it and was in a different realm immediately, then immediately back in my body. It was amazing to me, but made complete sense. It was not shocking, but more of a reaffirming overall. I was relaxed and happy I had the experience. It was interesting and comforting to be so close to 'home' for a brief time.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It's realer than current reality.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain It was fucking awesome. I'd love to die someday.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Yes