Todd H NDE

Experience Description

Was beginning my second round of palliative chemotherapy. Steroids and anti-nausea had been given via IV. Docetaxel chemotherapy was administered. Flow had commenced about 3-4 minutes. I was aware something was wrong. I was able to get a nurses attention. The nurse quickly removed the IV. A nursing team of 4 or 5 began working on me, administered an antidote. It is the time frame between removing the IV, and the antidote taking hold, that I began my experience.

I felt myself being pulled away and I was leaving my body. I was clear headed, but unable to verbally communicate. I felt a narrowing of both, my vision and my spatial awareness. The feeling of leaving was overwhelming; overwhelming is not exactly the right term, but it will do. I had a physical sensation of being pulled away from behind my body, by my chest and shoulders. I could see and hear what was happening in front of me with extreme clarity. I was aware of staff working on me, moving my body to a more reclining position, and talking to me. My mind told me to answer, but I was physically unable to do so. I was sad. I was dying and felt alone.

The antidote took hold quickly and my spatial awareness opened up. Before, I was focused on the small area in front of me. Now, I could hear in the room and my peripheral vision was restored. The antidote made me feel stoned. I was also physically shaking and trembling. After some time, the ability to speak, move, and walk returned. When I was able, my wife took me home.

I was reliving the experience over and over, and finally was able to sleep. When I woke, I was clear in my thoughts about what had happened. I had begun the near death experience. I had stepped into the doorway of the other side, but had not ventured any further down the path.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: January 2025

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic Reaction. Life threatening event, but not clinical death. Undergoing palliative chemotherapy, stage 4 metastatic prostate cancer

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. I had focus and clarity like I've never had before

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When the chemo was stopped, before the antidote was administered

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Events were happening. I cannot tell you how long they took

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was narrowed, but sharp. It was like looking through an undistorted magnifying glass.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Focused on the area I could see. No peripheral hearing

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain. It was as though had this gone any further, I would be passing through the tunnel.

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sadness. Awareness.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Beginning to understand Christianity

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Seeking Christian knowledge

What is your religion now? Do not know

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I had no definite beliefs

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain. It is something I think about a lot.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? No

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience?

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes 9 hours. My wife acknowledged it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain The usual information everyone has

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Because it happened.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It happened

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

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