Tomasz M NDE

Experience Description

I was in a wonderful, extremely bright white light. There was no time or dimension. It was very clear but not dazzling; the light was good. The light was everywhere and at the same time full of love and happiness. It's hard to describe with human words because the human world seems to me now so small and limited. Where I was, there existed everything you need for happiness. It was good emotionally; I did not feel any pain or depression which I had been suffering before this event. Everything was so good and awe-inspiring at the same time, but not amazingly complex. On the contrary, it seemed to me that I belonged to this world and it was quite natural that I should have found it in August, when I did.

I remember the moment when 'I returned' to this body. I did not want that. I wanted to stay there, where there was love and the vastness of good. My body was full of pain and such. Everything after returning seemed to me small and limited. Things hurt. Even every heartbeat which you never thought about was associated with pain. It hurt me too much in the left hemispheres of the brain, with an ophthalmic migraine (migraine ophtalmique fra.) The tubing they placed in my nose for oxygen made my nose ache. I was not happy. I felt that I was wrong to return. In the first few moments, everything was mingled. For instance, the time when I was unconscious and the present. However, I was and am sure it happened; it was not a dream. It really happened. I had and I still have sometimes beautifully colorful dreams but the difference between them and an NDE is not comparable. I was there and no one can convince me otherwise.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 2016

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Utrata sprzytomnosc przyczyna nieznana. Niedotlenienie pluc; comma une perte de connaissance (fra) Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I think it was an ophthalmic migraine, but don't know for sure.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal You cannot explain this. Words are very limited compared to what I felt there.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was not in the flesh

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I experienced only the light, and love, and then I returned. I saw no tunnel, or any other beings, so my eyes saw only the very intense white light, which could be looked into without having to shade my sight

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard nothing but then I did not focus my attention on it.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes White light with great intensity, which was everywhere but not dazzling. It was a light of 'good'.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? The happiness, the feeling of love and kindness

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I was part of the universe and the universe was I, as well.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No I knew who I was.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I am still a practitioner but pray differently. I think this experience dispelled all, even the smallest doubts, about the existence of God. It seems to me also that you do not need to be 'holy' to achieve eternal life. I think now, that God gives man more slack than I believed before.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Slightly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Because life does not end with the moment of death. Because there is a 'vast intelligence' that created the world and guides us. Our brain is too limited to understand it. This intelligence can be called God. There is something great and grand, and good.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain Do not understand the question. Translation makes it incomprehensible.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Uncertain I do not understand the question.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I divorced my wife and now can only love my sons.

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I do not pray to God to take care of my loved ones or to watch over them. Now I pray not to suffer. If you die (my cousin just died) I know that there, it is happier than here. I'm not afraid of death but of suffering. From mundane things, I’ve observed I have the impression that I started a new life. I'm not totally depressed though still I take drugs on the advice of my doctor. I do not smoke cigarettes although I was a great smoker. Tobacco smell bothers me as if I never smoked.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I'm more forgiving. Anyone can do what he or she consider appropriate, and I do not mind.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes My sister found me unconscious in my house. I was lying on my back and was told that my saliva blocked the esophagus and lungs. I could not be awakened. An ambulance was called. I did not respond to attempts to awaken me. I regained consciousness after 3-4 days in the hospital.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events t

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I've won three times in ‘Loto-foot’.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Concerning my head, the complete lack of symptoms of depression.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Unbelieving

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I sometimes wish my sister hadn't called the ambulance and that I remained there; I sometimes have a little regret.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I read a lot about this and I see that I am not alone. As I read of or hear people telling their experiences, I get goose bumps

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I feel perfectly well!!! Much better than before the experience; both physically and mentally.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? What changed concretely and physically in your life after the experience? I got rid of depression and no longer feel like smoking cigarettes.