Tonya Z NDE

I was hit by a car on a pedestrian crossing. I came to the realization of what was happening once I saw my own body. I saw it from the viewpoint of the corner of the room, away from the accident site. I was unconscious at the time.

For the first few seconds of the NDE, I felt that I was accepted there. Warmth, immense love, and an incredible feeling of wisdom surrounded me. It felt like I had arrived home from somewhere. I felt that I was given an opportunity to stay in that space.

However, as soon as I realized what had happened, I panicked and allowed fear to pervade my whole soul. Amazingly with no body, I still had a voice. I shouted with such powerful force and in such terror ‘this is a mistake!’ (that, I remember vividly). It was at this point that I felt there was a distinctive repulsion of these fearful feelings within the contrasting wisdom that surrounded me. (Throughout this seemingly short experience, I feel that I had my back to something and was looking the whole time down at my body.) I was not in harmony with the surroundings; perhaps I was immature. I felt that I was sent away. I feel that I did not choose to come back.

I regained consciousness as I was being carried out towards the ambulance. My feeling is that it was possible that my heart had stopped and that possibly the fright of seeing my own body may have started it again. I cannot verify this idea, as this was never monitored.

The experience was both one of a moment of true warmth, wisdom and happiness and, at the same time, one of emotional trauma for me

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1981

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death Possibly the serious injuries from being hit by a car.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was looking down at my body from the vantage point of the corner in a doctor’s room. My body was being looked over by the ambulance personnel. It was lying on the doctor’s examination table. I was lying face up, although I only saw the torso and lower half of my body, as an ambulance man was obscuring the view of my upper body.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Extremely alert and fully conscious of what was happening.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Not sure what ‘altered space’ refers to.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No However, I had the distinct feeling that there was something behind me, I never had time to turn around and look.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I definitely felt their presence around me, it was powerful, but did not see them, as I was too occupied looking down at my body in shock.

The experience included: Void

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? No However, it could have possibly been behind me.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I do not understand the question, sorry (dimensions?)

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? For the first few seconds I felt that I was accepted there. Warmth, immense love, and an incredible feeling of wisdom surrounded me. It felt like I had arrived home from somewhere. I felt that I was given an opportunity to stay in that space and it gave me an honest insight into my character. It was during this experience that I discovered the incredible fear in my soul. This being in too much contrast to the surroundings, I felt a distinctive repulsion of my fearful feelings by the surrounding energy at the time. I felt that in being sent away, I had failed myself. I think that if I had not been fearful, I actually would have wanted to stay there.

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I understood from the experience, at that young age, that you take with you when you die the feelings which you have now, and I also felt at the time that we, alone, are the judge of ourselves, that life is what you make of it, and I understood the importance of one’s emotional state whilst you are alive.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes The boundary was for me, my own fear. To cross over was to accept and to be in harmony with this new environment.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I believe that through my fear, I was encouraged/sent back to my body.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? None

What is your religion now? None

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes A bigger picture. A total change of perspective on life, death and society. Ongoing work on my fear issue.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The knowledge of a bigger picture of life, the wisdom and warmth was the best. The fear I felt was the worst.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The reactions were of genuine interest, but not influenced in any way, I think.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Thanks!!