Ute B NDE

Experience Description

A year before my experience, my brother had passed away. The evening before the heart attack I got severe back pain in the shoulder area. I disregarded the pain, thinking that I been carrying too heavy of loads. In the morning, I still had the back pain. I sent my son to school. He should have passed by my in-laws which was two houses over from our house. Our youngest son was still sleeping. Then I remember vomiting and screaming aloud. My in-laws called the emergency doctor. I was lying on the floor in the living room. The next thing I remember was leaning against the table while I watched two doctors trying to reanimate me. I kept thinking, 'You can't go now. You can't do this to mum. Last year Achim (my brother) and now me? I can't do this to mum.' That's the last thing I remember.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 15.12.2005

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack. CPR given. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) Cardiac infarction of the front part of the heart.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Two doctors tried to reanimate me. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness It was 'completely normal'.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When CPR war administrated.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't hear anything.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Serenity and determination

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. My brother died in the year before and I couldn't do let my mother lose another child.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic. Believing but I have nothing to do with the Church.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believe even more in God, but no more in the church.

What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I always believed in a life after death.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I don't want to re-educate others anymore.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I still see it very clearly and I'm convinced that it is true.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? That my love for my mother was stronger than the one for my husband or children.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I wanted to tell many people that dying is not hurtful.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Because it was so clear and distinct.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It's still clear and distinct.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No