Valentina D NDE

Experience Description

Surgery for abnormal cardiac bundle ablation was begun at 8. It was all finshed at around 1. The surgery was done while I was awake. They examined the abnormal bundle using a visualizing instrument like an X-Ray. They placed three femoral artery catheters into me, one in the coronary septum gave me a pain in the heart. It was hard to breathe. But I made a signal with my hand, they moved me and I felt okay.

The isoprenaline IV drip was started a few times. It went in a circle for a few seconds, and the effect was a heart palpitation at a rate of 230. They saw the abnormal bundle, a sort of pacemaker that became active sometimes and bothered me. With one of the catheters they put on the femoral artery, they begun the ablation using a radiofrequency.

I felt waves of warmth that came out of the back. They gave me exactly four burns. When the tachycardia started, I had obvious bladder swelling. I had urinary retention. I was naked, wearing only my wedding band. It was cold. I had five people working on me. I cried from exhaustion, discomfort and disappointment. I told them to let me up because I was tired. I didn't want any more of the surgery. I said 'That's enough!' The team leader responded to me, imploring me not to move because I could kill myself. The last targeted ablation started. They told me they had hit the target. They inject me with heparin to prevent a blood clot. Four of the five men leave hemodynamics. The team leader remains, and removes two of the catheters and leaves one in.

He takes off his gown. The nurse takes out the last femoral catheter. She calls the doctor. He is on my right; the nurse on my left. Like the manual defibrillator that I, however, don't see, she is behind my left ear. The monitor echoes my electrocardiogram. The two orderlies read the numbers together in a loud voice: it's my cardiac frequency and it seems to be a backward count. I remember only 30. Then the light went out suddenly like when I close my eyes.

There is a noise like when one opens a bottle of champagne. It's me, struggling to get out through my nose. I am a gray ball like you would make with smoke. I have a curl, like a cockatoo. I recognize myself and I am happy. I begin to sneak out, bouncing and floating quickly through the room. I'm up high, the scene seems much higher. The doctor is above me, and also the nurse. The green of their gowns...and also the radiation tunic worn over them. I was a monstrous body that I view with distaste, skinny and bony.

I was very proud of my physical form. The scialytic lamp floods the room with light and green of the uniforms and of the sheets. I travel in varying directions, oscillating, I am very happy. At one point I see a dark wall. The colors in fact seem different. In nuances. In tones. A wall: no longer seems what it was before. There are two children: they are my children. They are at their grandparents' home, one is three years old (the boy and he has chicken pox) and the girl is six. The boy is seated on a tricycle: it's new and I've never seen it before. It's red, with yellow pedals and a green basket. The girl sings in a loud voice a song about how her mother must return home; she is inventing the song and together they sing it and do a dance. My husband bought the tricycle with supermarket bonus points, but I've never seen it. He had opened it with his grandmother.

When I see it, I see it for the second time ...I turn suddenly and I am inside a tunnel. It's rather dark, the wall seems like a cloud and cotton wool, there are dark shades. It seems like when you are in the air. Here I seem to have eyes, because I put all my energy into not looking at the tunnel. A radiant light; an emanation of joy. I don't hate the noise. I struggle not to look. It's too beautiful. I know I want to be there...but again I hear the marvelous song of my children. I feel a brake because the tunnel has something that pulls like a magnet. The tunnel has a diameter in which is also divided. I travel alone. The light is at a distance. There are like four more rooms in there. The song stops me, I feel a pain in my chest. I open my eyes, see the full freckled face of the doctor. I felt that he had requested to charge the defibrillator, but I don't know when. I held my left ear open to hear if the defibrillator echoed. Everything was okay.

* I had a maddening pain, in the heart, in the femoral vein (in the two inguinal zones), I have a big belly and have to pee urgently, I am happy because those two little urchins recalled me to this earth, to play my role of mother, to continue my role as wife, daughter, sister, nurse. The view, the perceptions are felt like they were all united with the atmosphere. You know everything, you know it because you are absolutely conscious of everything. You are expansive, you are the universe, you are infinity. No pain, only love and infinite joy.

Circumstances around the time of the experience: Other: Cardiac arrest removing ablator catheter after abnormal cardiac bundle ablation.

Your condition at time of experience: Ventricle atrium completely blocked. My heart stopped beating for a little while. Absence of heartbeat.

Experience included: Out of body experience;Tunnel; Unearthly light; Darkness; Boundary; Strong emotional tone.

Your religious background at the time of the experience: Christian- Catholic Other/Comments: I thought that God wanted me to occupy myself with raising the children (ages 3 and 6 at that time). In effect they had a troubled adolescence (one of the two in particular)

Your religious background currently: Christian- Other Christian Other/Comments: Idea of God seen as love; source of love. Humans and animals are all connected with nature and the universe. I found so many explanations in Spiritualism and in Shamanism.

How do you consider the content of your experience to be: Entirely pleasant

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes, I had a disabling heart problem for three years, that brought me depression and the desire to die. I had moments in which I thought and hoped to die. I couldn't take the pain, the suffering, my disability. I wasn't myself anymore, but a phantom ball of pain. The drugs no longer had effect.

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes, colors, time, form, perception, sounds,...are indescribable.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Always equal, but I forgot when I went into the tunnel.

Did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal, you know everything, you have no need of asking questions. You are happy.

Compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Different. I understood without looking with the eyes.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Different.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Zero pain, euphoria, joy. Vitality, love. Knowldge of infinity. We are infinite and love.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes. A tunnel like a cloud and cotton wool, but dark. It was also divided. I was alone. I saw a light that I didn't look at; maddeningly attractive. I knew that if I looked at it I wouldn't turn away. The light was at a distance from me, in like four rooms.

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain I wanted to return, because I remembered my children, and I had the awareness that I was leaving them to grow up alone. I knew, and I had had enough.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I heard the children singing a song for me, and that I would have made them grow up alone ...I had the desire to return.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes I saw the invisible dimension, perceived the infinite. You know, you are the universe, everything.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes You are everything, you feel love.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? Yes When I went out of my nose like a spirit I kind of grinned with joy in recognition, in the rediscovered dimension that I recognized, I was disgusted by that miserable body in which I was suffering.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes you feel connected, the all.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? Yes about the objectives, because I left intact the job of mother. ...I hadn't carried it through

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes You feel, you know all. You don't ask; you are aware. You don't have questions.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes You know everything. You don't have questions. You are everything.

What occurred during your experience included content that was consistent or inconsistent with beliefs you had at the time of the experience? I didn't know about the NDE. I was amazed.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It seemed to happen two minutes later.

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience. I believe in reincarnation.

My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes I believe in immortality and reincarnation, in infinite love.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes. Dreams, sensations, some visions, sensations that would come true.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes. They made me understand what things are, spiritual evolution.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes, years. I was seen as a crazy woman. Now I will talk about it with someone.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real; a miracle, something crazy. A gift.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real. Spiritual evolution.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes. My choice of people

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I believe in reincarnation, spiritual evolution.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes waking dreams, with light that invades me and fills me with joy and energy. One time there was an angel over me, and I saw it also in dreams. I know its voice.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It's scary the strong impact that it has on your life.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes