Valeska K FDE

Experience Description

On January 12, 2019, my husband and I were travelling to a destination in the next state via a major highway. There was freezing temperatures and the roads, while wet, were not terribly slick. We did notice that all of the semi-truck drivers were travelling about 20 mph faster than we were in our car. I was thinking as we neared the next highway exit to ask my spouse to turn around and go back home.

Here is the physical account of what happened:

Just as I was opening my mouth to tell my husband to turn around and go home, a car hit us hard from behind. Our car hurled forward and to the right, almost off the highway and into a ditch. I watched the side of the road as we lost some control of the car, contemplating how bad this accident would be. Finally my husband regained control, but the car turned to the left and back onto the highway into traffic. BAM! We were hit again by a semi-truck. The very same it seemed that hit us a moment ago. This time the impact was to the driver's side-door. Now we were gazing at the front grill of a white freight-liner semi-truck. The driver was not stopping. It seemed like the driver was not respnding to our honk or the noise of the crash. I was scared and my husband panicked. I reached over him and desperately honked the horn to alert the driver of the truck. The truck still wouldn't stop. After being pushed a mile, we felt sure we were going to die.

It turns out that we were not exactly center of the trucks grill when it t-boned our car. The thing to stop the driver from pushing us on and on was the driver. My husband hit the brakes in an attempt to release or car from this semi and it worked. The car spun out 180 degrees into traffic and we watched the entire side of this truck closely pass our car. Then we ended up under the back semi-truck tire. We had been run over by the wheel of a semi-truck!

Here is the psychological, emotional, and spiritual account from the passenger (me):

After the initial impact, I was worrying about how bad is this going to be and what was going to happen to us. Then the accident escalated when we were stuck and pushed by a very unaware driver of the semi-truck. When I fully realized that there was likely a low chance of surviving, my mind was going through checks. I was saying goodbye to my mother and my family. I thought about how they would cope with me gone. Would my son be taken care of? I assesed everything and accepted my fate. I thanked everyone in my life for sharing their experiences and time with me. I realized there was nothing I could do, so I accepted whatever I couldn't control. In effect, I seperated myself from my attachments on earth.

My husband is a great driver and a logical thinker under pressure. We broke free of the truck! But, just as quickly as the flame of hope came, it was quenched. We saw the truck and I watched in slow-motion as our car passed under the truck. It was like watching the film frame of a movie. We were undoubtedly going to die. I felt myself, my consciousness sink into my body. It was like all sight and awareness was narrowing to a colorless pinhole.

Then, I was in a place that was no longer entirely dark. I was aware of this space that looked a lot like a NASA image of a galaxy. It looked like a white light with the spectrum of colors vibrating from it. I understood this as 'Source,' whish was a conscious knowing source. Starlights orbited around in this space in a logical pattern from the larger white-light source. I was there and made of conscious light. There were many other conscious stars, but a few of them inteacted with me. I remember communicating that this place was incredible. One of the light Beings responded, 'Yes, this is home. This is consciousness. This is source.' There was some back and forth about the meaning of being on the earthly plane, interraction with others, and the memories and energies we leave behind. I felt immensely at peace and knew that love was the most important thing in this place. I felt like I had interacted with at least one of these conscious lights before. As I try to make sense of what was communicated to me, I understand that I should be operating here on earth to the best of my abilities, with understanding and love.

I know that all energy remains and is not extinguished. I know that parts of our consiouness have been on journeys we have experienced before. All these things flooded my consciousness and I had understanding in an instant. There was no linear time. Since this happened only weeks ago, I am sorting out what I've learned and it is a bit challanging. There were three main conscious Beings who interacted with me. One Being seemed to be more experienced than the others and seemed to have more concern about communications with me and helping me.

Of course, I came back here with my husband. There were three men on the roadside after the car crash who were helping us to safety. One of these men had walked into highway traffic to help us. He was signaling with his hands for the oncoming traffic to stop. I am happy to have time here to share with those I love and to do my best to use all my expeiences to try and help others whenever possible.


Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 01/12/2019

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death. A severe car accident with a semi-truck.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes It was like being in a space scene. There was darkness with light star-like Beings and a huge source of light that they emanated to or from. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal During the FDE (fear death experience), time was more expansive. I did not use normal sight, but simply thought and as a result thinking, I knew the answered as if almost by an intuitive sort of communication.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the experience which I classify as an FDE, since my heart was still beating.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. It was nonlinear time

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was simply aware of everything in spherical vision.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was simply aware of everything in 360 degree vision. It was more intuitive from the outside in, rather than inside out.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I felt like I sank into a darkness inside myself before the experience. My vision pin-holed as it would if you lose consciousness.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain Not specifically, but these Beings I sensed lived as many times before.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was a source of light that emanated peace and tranquility.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It was a peaceful darkness with welcoming Beings who inspired unity.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, knowledge, overwhelming peace and connectedness, Unity.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I remember contemplating the meaning of existence and had many flashes of information. I arrived at the conclusion of everything is 'simply love' as I was experiencing in that place.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events. There were some flashbacks during the experience.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths. I believe in meditation, the divine, and honoring others as human beings.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain. More prominence.

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths. Several faiths overlap each other. I honor Buddhist philosophies (but others as well) as my path.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I interacted with 3 lighted bodies that I refer to as 'greeters.'

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes My view changed slightly.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes That was about the entirety of the experience.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I was certain that I was experiencing that very thing. God was a divine source of unity.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain I don't know that it was special, but unique and encompassing perhaps.

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain As far as on earth, it is difficult to say. It is as if the journey is in itself the meaning, or a lot of it. I am still sorting this out.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. I was certain that I was experiencing that very thing.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Uncertain I am still sorting through some of the knowledge that seemed to flood my consciousness.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is everything and the highest representation of the divine.

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Unknown

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Physical laws did not govern over my experience. I could hear with my Being. Sight wasn't limited and time was more expansive. Although, I was aware of where I came from and the concept of time, it didn't follow the same linear pattern as like being on earth.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It was more vivid that the events which surrounded the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of the experience.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Acknowledgement and some thought that maybe it was the brain's release of DMT.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes, I knew what they were.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I believed it but unsure what I actually experienced. Though it doesn't make any of it less real.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No