Victor D NDE

Experience Description

I remember hearing my wife shouting, 'Stay with me!' She was screaming so loud that it hurt in my head; and then her voice was gone.

It was dark, not black. Then I noticed warm light from above and around me. The light became brighter, blue and sunshine. Then I noticed I sat on a bed. Above was a ceiling light and I could see the blue sky and sunshine coming through. I felt very comfortable. I let myself fall backwards and felt relieved, saying, 'Thank Goodness!' It was as if I just woke up from a stupid dream.

I forgot about my earthly life. It was as it I woke up and couldn't remember my dream no matter how hard I tried. I checked my hands. Faintly, I recalled that I was dreaming and something was wrong with my hands. But then I knew I was just dreaming, and the dream was nothing but a dream. I was happy. I could move my hands and my body felt so healthy. I also noticed that I was somehow younger, like in my 20's and I was taller. I knew my wife was in a room next to this bedroom. She was doing some of our laundry. I knew I had a bad dream and took a deep breath. All of a sudden I hear that voice banging in my head and it really hurt. I said to myself, 'Oh no, that can't be for real. No!' Everything turned dark and then I woke up.

The Medic said, 'We thought we lost you.' I didn't understand what happened. I only knew they were pushing me out in the ambulance and into the hospital. My wife later told me that I was gone for 15 or more minutes. But what I experienced was about 10 seconds. I knew that I was on the other side and my wife was already there and here all at the same time. I was there and here also. I was so angry that they pulled me back here. I could have punched that guy. I didn't want to come back. I was so happy on the other side. I knew we were happy. My wife and I. And they bring me back. But I knew I couldn’t let my wife be alone here. But she was already on the other side. It didn't make any sense.

My wife has died several months later of thrombosis. Two days after she died, I was staring out the window. In the evening, there was such a bright light very far in the distance; as if someone were sitting in my living room and shining a car headlight directly into my face. The light came from where there is never light in the evenings. I researched and found out that deceased can make themself visible to relatives with light.

Weeks later, something happened. In my kitchen, I saw a funnel on the corner bench near the door. We don't have dogs anymore, but all of a sudden I heard something drop in the kitchen. The sound was 2 meters from the corner bench. Ever since then, I talk to my wife. I can't see her but I believe it must be her. Sometimes when I doze off, I get the feeling my wife sits on the sofa. It feels so real. I cry every time. But I don't tell to others, otherwise they lock me up in the looney bin.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 09/08/2023

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death. Yes there was. I was out for at least 15 minutes; my wife told me after I regained conscious. The paramedics said that it was good that my wife called the paramedics. My blood pressure went down and I passed out.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than norma. I was aware that I had a bad dream when I woke up on the other side. There were so many things going through my head. It was almost like a review of what I did yesterday. As far I was aware, that other side is my life. What I had dreamed was a dream, nothing more.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Only after that Medic pulled me back into conscious. I'm somewhat still very angry about it still to this day.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I never felt so happy and secure. I had no pain at all. It was almost too perfect.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't hear much, only my wife in the other room doing stuff.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain. When it went dark, I felt a bit claustrophobic and uneasy but when it became brighter, the feeling got easier

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain It was a blue light and like sunshine as if I was standing on the beach under a blue sky. It was that sort of light but it was blurry but comforting

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place. Where I woke up was new to me but when I woke up on the other side I knew this is my life, here do I live.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, secure, and absolute certain that my wife and I truly love each other. I felt at home.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. In a way, yes. There were so many thoughts in my head suddenly but also a calm I can't describe this. I was thinking about everything and at the same time utterly relaxed.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No I had the feeling when I woke up that I had a bad dream. But that dream vanished in a split second and I wasn't concerned about it. It was like I would feel about a dream in this world as just a bad dream; nothing more, done with it.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. Yes of course. When I heard that voice, I was very angry but also, suddenly knew my wife needs me.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. The remarkable thing was that I knew that the place I woke up that this is my life and has been all along. But one thing I didn't recall was my name.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I know that there is life after death. Absolutely certainly.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? Yes after I regained conscious. I knew that life is not the end here. I can't describe it. All I know is that we don't die or at least we don't die as science tells us.

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Oh yes. That love was so strong. I never felt such strong love. it was like love at first sight. Where I was I never wanted to go or be anywhere else

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I'm confused about certain things.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Well, I don't understand how my wife could be already on the other side and here all at the same time, me included. And that this reality felt like as if I had just a bad dream. It doesn't make any sense at all! I don't take drugs, I don't smoke and we don't drink alcohol.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It was a short experience of a couple of seconds and ever since I regained conscious more and more details came back into memory. Things like thoughts, details about the room. I could draw the entire floorplan from there.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I don't know.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? That there is a phenomenon about distance and time. Also that Time on the other side has a different ratio than here.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes with my wife. About a week later. She said she always somehow knew that there is life after death. But she was as much as I am surprised that she was already on the other side.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It is emotional. I knew that it was real because I knew that the place I woke up that this place is and has been my life so far. I couldn't understand what was happening when I heard that voice here he is again. It felt so unreal and bizarre

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It felt no different from this reality but more intense or real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I want to go back there

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I wouldn't know.

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