Vikki H NDE

Experience Description

I was picked up, thrown overhead across the room, and landed on a metal rod. I lost consciousness. I found myself in total darkness with no contact to the earth. I was extremely happy and content. I knew who I was and had no fear. I did not care about the past and only wanted to continue being extremely content. Over the next half hour, one sense came back at a time. This happened very slowly until I was in a lot of pain. I did not have a care in the world but knew I wanted to stay where I was in this land of contentment. I had absolutely no senses.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: August 1988

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack. Direct head injury. Other: I was unconscience about a half hour. I was not there, so I do not know how far gone I went. I was unconscious for about a half an hour

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? I was unconscious to the five senses, but I was very alert and conscious of this new reality. I was very alert and very conscious of myself and how I felt.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? None at all except inside my head. I knew who I was and that I was very happy with no cares in the world. I wanted to stay there. I was very alert within these constrictions of no sense or touch to earthly reality

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time had not meaning.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I had no vision. It was totally dark and that did not frighten me at all. I was so happy that nothing bothered me.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard nothing

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place I was definitely not in earthly reality, but not a mystical place. Just inside myself or in space. I felt like I was in space.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Complete contentment.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I knew who I was and nothing else mattered.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

The experience included: Awareness of the future

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated I went to church for social reasons, and believed in God.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Not important to me

What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic After the assault, I went to college at 42 and during my studies in Anthropology lost all convictions about God.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I thought we just died and turned to dust, but now I know our conscious remains.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am more aware that I take myself with me, so I keep a clean slate because I will have to live with it.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I am not afraid of dying because I know there is 'consciousness' after death.

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I knew I was not of the earthly world anymore and new I was beyond life. An dwas quit happy about it.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes I am not afraid of dying because I know there is 'consciousness' after death.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Well, I have lived a hard life and do not love anything or one, but I felt a love during my experience.

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes How do you describe a different reality?

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Almost immediately but no one listened and not one still listens.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I believe it really happened because it did. I remember it completely.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It happened and it was real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No