William F NDE

Experience Description

I was in a motorcycle accident when a truck was switching lanes. I tried unsuccessfully to slide under the middle of the truck. The motorcycle went down. The police and paramedics came. The police officer was the first responder. He jacked up the truck because my helmet was stuck under the front axle of the truck. I was evacuated by helicopter to the hospital. A man in the helicopter told me to stay awake.

The next thing I remember was being in a large field. About 100 yards a in front on me, I saw a fence and gate. On the other side of the fence and gate, it looked like a black hole. I was drawn towards the gate. The closer I got, the more love and warmth I felt and the more selfishness and bad feelings went away. When I got about five steps from the gate, I was consumed by it. My hand went to open the gate and someone else’s hand grabbed my forearm, telling me to 'Stop'. When I looked at the man, I noticed several people whom I recognized but didn’t know them.

One man again reiterated that, 'You need to stop' and continued, 'I’ve been watching you a long-time son and you have made many mistakes. Do you know where you are?' I looked around and replied, 'I’m not sure.' He said, 'You are death.' I looked around and panicked. He said, 'You scared.' I answered, 'No, I am not.' He then said, 'You’ve always feared this for no reason then.' I shook my head in agreement.

Next, he asked me, 'Do you feel in control?' I said, 'No, I do not.' He said, 'You’ve never had control in anything in your life. It’s a veil or facade. You controlled everything in your life and it ultimately was wrong. I shook my head again and said, 'Yes, you are right.' He then said, 'You are be given a choice that many don’t have. God is giving you the choice of going back and fixing the wrongs in your life or you can go through the gate. However, you need to listen and heed these warnings. First, if you go through this gate all of your regrets in life will torment your soul until you are given another chance. It will feel like an eternity.' Further, he then told me, 'I still deal with regrets from my past life.' 'If you go back and don’t work on your life to become a better person, you will yearn to be here. If you don’t find Happiness in the right ways, you’ll always looks back to the feeling you have now at this place and yearn for it.' One of the last things he said was, 'When you go back, you’ll regain your health. You will have to regain your heart and mind. You are being given something great, but realize God already knows your choice.' He then looked at me and asked, 'What are you going to do?' I looked at him and said, 'I’m going to go back.' At that point the feelings consuming me left and I let go of the gate. I heard him say, 'I’ll see you again, very soon.'

I then woke up and saw my mother. I told her that I’m back permanently and not going anywhere. She had a face on her and said, 'You’ve been very hurt.' I told her I’ll be fine and that I saw someone. She asked me who I saw. I old her that I wasn't sure but I’ve been given a second chance. She laughed and said it was probably your grandfather kicking you in the butt to come back here.

I have had multiple surgeries and was told that I wouldn’t be the same physically. I had to relearn to walk, amongst other things. Around a month after the incident, all the images and memories of hurting the people I cared most about hit me. I then have focused and continue to this day focusing on fixing my past and changing my future. Five months later I walk without a limp. I jog miles now and the only evidence of my accident is the scars. The biggest evidence of the reality of this experience is the complete change in my personality.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 06/11/2019

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident CPR given Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) I was in a motorcycle accident and evacuated by helicopter to the hospital.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness It was normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was resuscitated on the helicopter

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I have a visual memory and photographic memory. It was exactly the same

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Hearing was the same.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The person stated they deal with the torment of their past.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. It was a field with grass from the fence that went left to right. There was a gate in the middle of the fence. On the other side, it looked like a black hole.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? The experience started off as normal. The closer to the gate I got, I felt every good feeling and the closer I got to the gate, the bad feelings fell away. When I got very close to the gate, it consumed me.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others. I saw wrongs and had understanding of things I couldn’t comprehend before.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? I remembered many past events. The wrongs of my life especially with my wife

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life. I was given a warning. If I went through the gate, I was told that I would be tormented by my mistakes. If I turned around, I need to fix my life. If I didn’t change, I would yearn for where I was which was death.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other faiths- New age Baha’i

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Pray and speak to god constantly

What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age Baha’i

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I met a man who was familiar but I didn’t know who they were

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes Fear of death. Understanding control wasn’t real. Feeling warmth of God.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain That someone had been watching my life from a distance and was aware of my doings.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes God gave me a choice and that ultimately God already knew my choice.

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain. Purpose is Happiness and to receive the feeling I was experiencing there.

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists My soul would be torment from my regrets and mistakes. Also, I know that god existed

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain. He brought up the things of my past and that I could fix them.

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I before had sociopathic tendencies. I was controlling, selfish, manipulative, extremely good at reading people through interaction and body language. I had no empathy and never felt guilt or remorse. Now I’m selfless and empathetic. I feel emotions and it’s overwhelming for the first time in my life. Now I know how people are feeling by just looking at them. I can feel what they feel. Remorse and guilt strike me from my past. I also notice that where I did things instinctively before now, I stop myself.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Past relationships are rekindling and others from recent are hurting.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember this as accurately as the most important things on my life.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can read what people are feeling now by looking at them. It’s an intuition of sorts.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole thing is meaningful to me.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About a month when I couldn’t handle my feelings and emotions anymore. Every person that I tell it to believes it because it is completely against what my character was prior and they see the change of myself.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. The reality of my experience was instant. The overflowing of past memories I didn’t understand until I rethought my whole experience

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. My view of the experience being real is stronger each day

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None